Odd Summer

Honestly...
This is a weird summer.

Freshman summer= Crazy and I was always doing something (typical)..
Sophmore summer= Dating my First. Boyfriend... ever  =*) 

And now... Junior summer. It's this weird in-between stage...
Definitely an interesting season.

I dont really know
how to describe it.
I have every right to be sad.
Work is hard,
Friends Are Gone,
and...
life is weird.

But to be transparent with you-- Im happy =)
I dont even know why.
Im very grounded in God.
Very sure that Im in His will.

And am purposefully
*choosing
to find joy in...
everything.

So... Im good.
weirdly
oddly
simply
good...

How! My dears, are you?? ♥

Stolen

I've decided how I feel right now... Can I draw you a word picture? Deep down--this is how I feel.
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I am on a mountain. I am standing very straight, almost leaning forward eagerly.
And I am yelling as loudly as I can.
My face is strained and pulled with how hard I am yelling.
But there's a strong scary wind blowing.
And its stealing my words.
My breath is gone- taken by the wind.
But I am still yelling.
Rain is slapping me hard on the face.
Telling me to stop trying.
My words have no meaning.
No one hears me.
They don't see me.
Those that glance at me- turn away with disdain or indifference.
And there I stand.
Still yelling.
With the wind pulling my tears off my face as if they mean nothing.
Just like my words.
Stolen.

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